Time does not exist. What you perceive as the passage of time is an illusion that is a necessity of being alive. The game is to break the illusion. That’s the whole game. All your suffering is pushing you towards that.
Please reach out to me if you are struggling, or if you just want someone to listen to you vent. I promise I do not mind. I want to help. I love you. Both the Collective “You’ and you individually.