Musings of the Mad

I’ve hated this world for so long,
I’ve tried not to be in it.
I stopped trying to live.
I gave up trying.
That’s no way to win the pennant.
I feel so bad now and i just want to feel good.
I don’t care what it takes, I will do it.
Just show me the path, Lord! Why am I blind?
I don’t know how I can get through it!